i just know that she wants my heart,

and that's where all my imperfections are.
but she said that i was the brightest little firefly in her jar.




Hi I'm Leyla and I'm really good at staying focused on my work.

there's an angel by your hospital bed,

desperate to hear his name on your breath;
as he looks down you're not making a sound.
open your eyes, look at me!
i'll bring to you whatever you need,
and i'll tell you i'm sorry
that i can't take this pain away from you,
and i'd put it on my own body if i knew how to!
can't you see?

Oh dear sweet goodness gracious. Have I really not updated since October 27th? Daymn! I'm starting to feel kinda like Jordyn, who never updates even though she's so damn good. Har har. Shameless thrashing of a friend.

Not much has really happened in recent times. I'm rather accustomed to being in high school now, and I've made lots of new friends that, otherwise, I'd never have made before. A few of them are siblings of people in my grade who I think need to be taught a lesson on how to not fail at life, ASAP, which feels kinda strange to be frank.

I've spent the last few days kinda sick. Wednesday (at 4:47AM and 11:35AM respectively) I found myself throwing up, and I've been eating minimal amounts of food ever since. I also went to a music department holiday party that same day (around 7PM) and completely shot my legs dancing. :'D

And now there's like, two feet of snow outside (and we're expecting another foot tomorrow) because of a snowstorm, as a result of which I had a snow day yesterday! Yay! Now my skin's just really dry. xO

(Dad's blasting Armenian music next door, and it's weird upbeatness is contrasting my superchill Copeland. I might go punch something. Too bad I can only turn it up so high before I get screamed at.)




These would happen to be the WIPs of something I've been working on on and off (simply because I realized too late how off the anatomy of it all is). It's a doodle of Haseo from .hack//GU, and instead of doing some cheery-ass sunny field, I went for the SUPERCOOL night field with the weird f-- FUCKDAMN DAD TURN YOUR MUSIC DOWN I NEVER BLAST MINE.

I can't wait until I move out. (:

ANYWAYS.
There's a muchmuch cooler one of him and Atoli in the works, and a cutie fanart of Haseo&Endrance for Sarah Phee because I promised her some. XD It's wrapped up with her other gift, so I can't really show you my b&w scan.

I'm just working on the fanart and a few christmas pictures, otherwise... that'll be all!

Really anticlimatic, isn't it?

the biggest tragedy is not your death, but a life without reason.

So, first and foremost, welcome back to the Klutz Kronikles, which hasn't updated since October 16th. How ever did I live?


Today we're gonna start with the first product of my boredom in class- bikini girls! There's some chibi and ... Thatcher, I think. Very pink, very hoish.


This was something I drew listening to Robert Randolph's Ain't Nothing Wrong With That. And I felt like drawing poofy hair and superstar poses. So sue me. D:


Continuing on the path of music-inspired drawings, this is from Iron&Wine's Boy With A Coin, featuring, DA DADA DAAAH, GALE! Because I felt like it, kay? Really. My drawings lack any sort of form or purpose anymore. I' almost sad. Almost.


Finally, we're getting somewhere. Xiu (pronounced Zhi-oo) is my Asian OCD-ridden experiment of awesome. The last "resonator," as Jordyn knows her, and probably one of the classier additions to the team. I'm going to enjoy this. Color scheme pending.



Here's where we get srs. The first picture is my final concept of Eric once he ditches the creepy labcoat. I've got his hair worked out, the trinkets, yadda yadda. His concept design was probably my favorite, but this is the first time I've ever been able to draw his hair perfectly. Har har.


And who would I be without a Riadump? This was more fun than anything else. Meaning, it's useless. So on the left we've got a very interesting battle outfit of awesome that reminds me somewhat of Verunica's, but with a more... flat-chested twist. Watch that stuff be made of some sort of armored spandex blend. That'd be funny. Upper middle is something I uploaded because the anatomy is so whacked, and yet I wanna finish it. Lower middle is one of the more accurate representations of my baby, colored with a Q-Tip. 8D On the right is the pending design for her new uniform. Booyaaaah. 8D

i'm gonna put my hand in front of your head.

I'm in such a good mood, but I'm so tired. D: My day literally went like so:

~8-2:30 - School
~3 - Bus to Sarah's house.
4:30 - Freshman football game
6:30 - Choir
7:20ish with impeccable timing - Khaled Hosseini at UB
10 - HOME. D:
So, who the hell is Hosseini? He is the world-renowned author of The Kite Runner as well as One Thousand Splendid Suns, and we got to see him (forfree!) at the local university. He was so phenomenal, it's scary, but that's for later. You see, we get mandatory school credit for doing out-of-school things and doing writeups on them, but since I didn't have my sheet, I took notes!


Three and a half pages worth, thankyou. Complete with worthless doodles! Now I just gotta get my sheet, and I'm kinda inspired to write about some of the things he said. My shorthand's the worst, I know. :'D


Right, don't ask me what this is. I was bored in Earth Science and felt like adding detail, kayh? So I drew some random girlpersonthing and added beads wherever I could. :'D


This is a kind of thing that's been stuck in my head for ages. I always draw Ria as a passive looking character, but I kinda wanna draw her with her weapon(s) out. So this is just something I was playing with in English (inwhichIhaveatesttomorrowee!), annddd... yeah. >>



And this is Nye. Because... I don't really have accurate references for his dapper self, and he's terrible to describe. Pretty boy, right? 8D

we believe in barack obama, he loves you and he loves your mama.

I felt the title was appropriate. Debate today and all. Sarah and I agreed that there ought to be cage matches instead.

Thank you to Exhaltorio for posting up his lovely lineart of a kitten named Maurice, because I used it for some much-needed coloring practice. Behold!I tried to go for a more atmospherical feel in each of them, and practiced with shading out of different palettes. I'll risk it more next time, I'm still easing myself into this whole coloring thing. I think I've come a long way. Feel free to suggest situations to shove my characters into! If it's anything EXTREMELY far-fetched, I'll prolly use Ria for it. >_> She takes up most of my sketchbook anyways, the clown brain-leech. Also, found this on a friend's facebook. That's Emily (jazz hands girl), myself (holding the frisbee) and someone who I think is my stand partner Jessica all the way back in June. Don't know what Kan-Jam is? It's a game with cans. Bamo.

&i know it seems like we're never coming back.

I've been in an incredibly sketchy mood as of late, so a blog entry seems... incredibly fitting. Before, I start though, I'd like to touch on three things that have bothered me MAJORLY as of late, and all of which are things my friends have said to me. The first, I remember distinctly, began with a conversation between my friend and I during art class. I was done with whatever project we were doing at the time, and I decided that, hey, maybe I should doodle for a little while, since nothing extra was assigned.

Can I just clear up, for those who think my art is just really bad realism, that I'm NOT AIMING FOR REALISM K? It's fun to have exaggerated features and limbs.

So anyways, my friend says to me, "Why do you draw those anime people? I hate them." Or something.

As much as I love said friend, and I'm not mentioning any names by any means, I got a little offended. One, not only did several people comment that my art has strayed far from anime and into a more cartoony semi-realism, but you don't just say something like that to someone. I'm like, afraid to draw around that person now in fear of making them say something else like that. Same person and I were having a discussion about our school art program and, since I might wanna have a double major in Literature and Art and a minor in Music, I said that I might have to transfer school simply because the school one of my friends goes to has a better program. And my friend says, "You'd want to transfer schools JUST for the art program?"

Well.
Yes. Since that's what I want to attempt to incorporate into the rest of my natural life. Yes.

The third thing was actually something from this morning and from a different friend, and all she asked was, "Do you ever draw real people?"
My question is, "Am I obligated to?"

I'm not sure if anyone else is bothered by stuff like that, but seriously, man. I doodle because I like to doodle, and I'm (usually) proud of my finished stuff. I really do not understand why in hell people who don't even want to do anything with art later on in their lives feel like it's necessary to criticize little things like that. And yes, I have drawn real people before, and it's hard, and I'm still working on it.

Fuck damn.

Hem.

WIP Halloween picture. Some witchy thing sitting on the edge of some cauldron, it's prolly gonna end up looking like crap anyways so I'm not even gonna talk about it.
After listening to the Decemberists (Mariner's Revenge Song), I felt like sketching something folky, and was in the mood to put Ria in different situations just because I wanted to. After much repetition, I came out with this piece of crap.Finished digital cover of my sketchbook, should do it in colored pencils on the real thing. Her claves are too long, thighs are too short, I see it, I know.

Now I'm in a crappy mood.

well, hello, hello.

Well, as you can see above, I had a little bit of fun with my digicam. I mean, come on. And I figured out some cool exposure settings on Photoshop. : > I'm kinda happy I got to play this weekend a little more than usual. Anyways!

Since I finished my sketchbook, I figure it's time to go back and figure out what I didn't upload. This is a sketch of Aline that I'm not sure I uploaded, but I think it captures her attire and general expression and stuff pretty well. She's... carefree, to say the least. What a goofer. I can't wait to play her.

And here is something I've been talking about doing for... kind of a while. Getting down into the nitty-gritty of Ria's design is something I kinda gotta do if I wanna start doing her justice in my sketches, youknow?

Anyways.
Everyone needs to wish a WELCOME BACK to Wolfie, who had left us due to unprecedented reasons and stuffs for a very long time, and I'm sure we ALL MISSED HER. D<>

Too sleepy to write much more, but gotta finish my homework.

&all you ever wanted, was someone to tuly look up to you.

... and six feet under water, I do.

I'm not gonna lie, guys. I'm in such a slump right now, it's crazy. I'm tired, I have no time to do anything any more, I'm almost always falling asleep in random places, and I have work up the hiznay to get done & handed in on time so my teachers don't bust caps in my ass.

There really is a bit more than this, but my brain is registering 10:14PM as late, therefore I must go to bed before my body implodes on itself. Here, have a Ziegte!Ria!Mermaid and be happy with it. 'Causeuh, I don't have anything better to offer. There's like, 10 pages of pose practice, a bunch of Ria faces and some Rosie concepts, but nothing thrilling and OMGAMAZING to post up on here. Maybe when I get my school art projects done...

Ha, wait, those are lame too. A newsprint collage of a contour line drawing of my face and a still-life that I'm not looking towards whatsoever because my art teacher thinks she's all that and can't actually teach worth a damn half the time, because she's too concerned on keeping the four obnoxious girls in my class on track and makes us do three sketches for one project against our will.

Is it that hard to let us get away with just drawing a fucking sunflower in a barrell and a rose in a wicker vase?

Go listen to some Anberlin or Hush Sound and appease me.
Birthday countdown starts next week.

then sunday morning i'm regretting it all.

New layout, again. Let's see how this one works out. o_o Anyways. Here on my left is a sketch and a short description of a character named Aline- the common-sense-infested fashionista, a good friend of Cassie's (who's the woman Vlad cheats on Ria with, for those of you who know). She's got this thing about thinking that Ria may actually be alive, so she's pretty wary of letting Cassie do inaproppriate things. :< What a good friend!

And funny at the same time. She'll be great.

IIIIN THE BLUE CORNER... we have Ria as a child. : > She'ssocute.

Alrighti'mdone. 8D

if sunday morning i'm forgetting to call,

I'm one of those people who, if inspired, have to draw right away, no matter the circumstances. So today, Jenna got my kiriban for 3,344 pageviews. She requested a doodle of my Gale and her Piper together, because simply, Piper scares Gale witless and she thinks of him as her best friend. Piper is a dijinni, and Gale is human. Piper eats humane essence. You get the drift.

Next up, a concept that's come back to haunt me from its grave. A long, long time ago, Jordyn and I were discussing the circumstances of Vlad and Ria meeting if they met in our world, in some point in history. We sort of decided that, if anything, they'd meet during WWII with Ria being some English nurse held hostage (for some reason) (it's so historically incorrect, Ryan and McLoughlin should slap me) by some Nazis, where Vlad is with his smexy accent and all. So they'd end up snogging in broom closets once Ria stopped being a feisty littly bitch. 8DD They allll give in to Vlad's charm at some point. /shot

Of course, here are some more or less accurate doodles. If you can't read the captions, the top one says, "Mainly in broom closets..." and the bottom says, "EH? You want to do WHAT?"

Or something along those lines. I can't be bothered to double check. D:

Harhar. >_> It's so bad that I wanna laugh at it.

I want Nazi!Vlad drawings now. >0

all i've got is what you didn't take.

Welcome to the 50th klutz kronikles blog post! That's 50 entries of useless sketches, unfinished works, concepts, and random life news of the Leyla. Today I have only one work to feature, because I said I was going to draw something (less) crappy for the anniversary entry (because I keep track of that stuff). Here is the inked sketch, inked with a blue Pilot pen, of Ria and Ziegte, drawn during Sarah's choir rehearsal to some gorgeous song I can't seem to find.

Note to self: Find song.

Here on the right we have this same inked sketch with color on it. Ziegte's blood was somuchfun, if that thing even bleeds anyways. The greatest thing was that the base color for Zieg was white, shaded with blues and purples. I love how disproportional its arms are. :'DD Ria's hands are like claws, and Jenna pointed out how she looks like she's all, "CAN'T TOUCH THIS." I agree.

The final version, here on my left, is... finished. There's a color filter and Ziegte looks creepy as all hell implies, which is A-OK! Because Zieg IS creepy! If I ever find that song I sketched this with, I'll definitely link it. Itwassodramatic. And... goodness. Ziegte's arm. WHY ARE YOU SO LONG, NOODLE ARM? And Ria's bottom half is loldisproportional. Oh well. : >

HAPPY TALK LIKE A PIRATE / 50th ANNIVERSARY DAY!
Badumbadum PISH.

i know the secrets that you keep, i know where you sleep.

Hello one and all and welcome to the 49th entry to the klutz kronikles. I assure you that the 50th will be celebratory, and without crap art!

Now, here on the left (this new formatting is an attempt to stop making my entries so freakin' long-looking) is something I doodled in lunch while ignoring James and talking to Jarret about some random stuff, and listening to Emily and telling Laura to stop slapping the table. I decided she'll be some sort of jester thing, but Iduno. I still have lots of time to decide!

Now, what I've actually had time to get adjusted and get some doodlin' time in class, I've been drawing several pages' worth of RiaRiaRia. She's been swimming in my mind, and since Jordyn and were planning to possibly edit the entire story, I wanted to give her younger self a slight revamp. That's for later, though. This is something cheesy I decided to doodle, because flowing leaves/flower petals seemed superfun to do at the time. And she's wearing a skirt. That'sjustweird.

Here we have something I totally FAIL at drawing - pregnant women! ;D Yousee, Zieg's gonna leave her alone when Vlad does and hit her hard after her kidsies are born. So she looks relatively healthy here, right? Right. Not for long~ ;DD

And finally, we have the last sketch in the series. This was the doodlebit I did of younger, 16-year-old Ria. I hate it. I don't like it at -all-. Why am I even scanning it? Iduno. My character design here is totally flawed. I have to go back to making her look punky with a bad haircut, 's how I'm used to seeing her when she was younger. ._. Ohboyohboy. She'ssogorgeous.

And Cassie commented on my way of drawing curly hair today. She 'wtf'd a little, even. ;DD

where you got what you wanted and ruined it all!

First and foremost, I would like to wish a happy (belated!) 17th birthday to Joe! I realize I promised him arts, but I just haven't had time. D: So here are the doodles I actually DID come up with! Grief, Kitty!Joe, and Irwin for you.
GodIswearI'lldosomethingbetterlater.
This next piece is actually something I've been doing in Art 1 as of late, our beginning project! Blind contours~ (although I did peek on some of these). I basically contorted my hand into a bunch of poses and did... this. Two-page spread fo you. Really, not that thrilling.
Also something I did in Art 1 (and some other classes...) after I was done doing contour Pepsi cans. Demented animals! There's a dragonfly, a ladybug, a flower, and my favorite one of them all, a fish with an impossibly long tail. I might even color it.
Yes, I know fish don't make noise. So it said, "CHEE!" Sue me.Next up are my Darkheart doodles, as per always. Ziegte, the genderless illness (I did a test on my lunch table, and most guessed either male or couldn't guess at all!) is really an illness to me, too. It's been showing up... almost everywhere now. D: Which is scary.
This one's a concept I'd like to flesh out. Ria and Ziegte with a shared speech balloon, "I speak through you." It's crap, but most of my concepts are. ;D

I just liked how this came out. Except for her scalp being too tall (that's something I tend to do in my doodles), I think I near nailed how Ria's supposed to look. o_o
Say hello to my new journal footer! ;D Will be finished soon.Not much of a story behind this one. I was done with a German quiz and decided to doodle on the back of my paper. Second time I handed in something to Mr. Murphy with Ria drawn on it. I happened to particularly like this.Iduno. Ria again. >_> What a great thing to leave off with.